Do I happen to be a heartbreaker, or a heartless guy? , Well I would say “No”. When it comes to relationship there are problems surrounding factors such as time, money, sacrifice or even self-gratification in terms of feeling good about the whole idea, and this is really something worth tackling before going ahead into the deep realms of the whole idea. I personally do not believe that because I happen to be in a relationship, and there is love, and I am not really comfortable with the sacrifies that I really have to push myself hard to accept it, because I don’t want to hurt the other party involved. This does apply to a current relationship I had to let go. The problem with this relationship was not love, money, or I have to lie a bit time. The main issue was that I was not really comfortable with the idea of that fixated point in my life.
Many would say I am not mature enough probably, or even go into the extent to say that I am a self-centred person. Well you can judge me but you cannot be right about your judgement. But then again we shouldn’t forget the fact that I am just 22—? I still do have a long way to go in my life. And really I am not ready to settle if that might be the case. Men are always afraid in general. But in my case that’s not the issue at all. I want a flexible relationship. A relationship I can say enough is enough, and that’s the end of it. Not a relationship that bonds me forever tills the altar calls.
Recently I was in a relationship, and really I think in fact it was a healthy one except for the fact that I did not really have time, and besides I was afraid of the fact that the relationship was going too deep. I couldn’t really be there for my lady. So I decided to call it quits. But really I would say this was one of the hardest decision I had take in years. But what a man got to do, he has to do. Now well I tried to explain the reason for my stance by my ex-lady would not see it. Well to make it easy on me I just did ask for forgiveness and had to bear the fact that she wont really see my angle, not now, maybe the future. That’s a lady for you.
Well indeed relationships are what they are, hard to let go, hard to forget and really had too reason rationally when they are not going well.
Well i have being lazy due to probably, because of the tormenting exam and maybe even life, my normal boring life that is.
Well i have been thinking of learning Java from scratch and becoming an expert like Dabar but then for a start I had to actually browse his blog, to get tips on things to download etc.
Besides that he has also personally really beign very helpful in terms of advising me on the approach such as my part of the dedication and also the recommendation of the best book to buy. He recommended Java� How to Program 6/E (latest edition),published by Deitel. When i checked both of my favourite local Bookstores via their websites MPH and KINOKUNIYA . They didntt have it. I even called theMPH and gave them the ISBN and they told me they dont have it when the lady checked the system. So I decided to search other bookstores like Times etc, still without any postitive result.
I then called Kinokuniya and the lady at the reception said they dont have it in stock, but they could order it for me . The funny thing is they actually have 2 editions . One the International edition costing arround RM79 and the other what they call a normal edition costing also arround RM359 or so. See the huge difference??. The international edition does not come with the Cds. So why not just download it from the site, and the rest from different respective sites. hehehe
Besides its a lot of money. So i called her back and told her i wanted the cheap one :p
So well my exams ends on the 16th of this month. So starting which Java ensures something for the holidays. No vacation for me, it would be just coding and coding and coding :D. And besides i downloaded w.blogger from the website, and its not working 
thats a desktop application software for blogging easily from your desktop environment. Anywayz i would try to re-download and reinstall later and see.Currently i just had my lunch and i am sleepy. :yawns:
Knowledge Management another should i call it “useless” hum or stupid. i mean what is it about Knowledge that you have to manage? lolz there is a lot. is that not what i can conclude that you were thinking??
well actually you where just thinking of the normal knowledge as in what the dictionary defines!! is it not? well if not then you are one hec of a genius, because thats what i taught. just like you if the case implies. now i have this class of 3 /credit /hours a week . which tells me that knowledge management is defined as
a process of creating value of an organizations intangible assets. It
deals with how best to leverage knowledge internally in the organization
and externally to the customer and stakeholders
crap isnt it? well and i have to go to this class 3 hours a week. and the lecturer i think is kindda racist, because of the way she stares at me when there is a question thrown at the class and i happen to get it correctly. dem poor me the only black guy in the class 
. i would have had support from my black friends . BLACK POWER BLACK POWER !!. anywayz dont mind me. i was just jocking. i am not an african version of a skinhead . ok plss!! . i just realised the lady was kindda racist.
Anywayz to hell with knowlege management, i can say worse but i have the class in an hours time, and i have to attend it otherwise i might be barred form exams. dem !! yeah that horrible. anywayz enough of knowlege management and to hell with their purpose. but then when we talk about financial management, time management, i seem interested why? because thats only the time i see something fun, especially financial ;). but the question is does knowledge management have any purpose? well i dont know. maybe i should ask my lecturer that? you think i am dumb? well its upto. freedom of thinking.but then again i still dont get the idea of going to a specific class and learning a stupid course that would teach you how to manage your knowledge.but dont mind my blabberings, the subject definition is something else. creating a value of an organizations intangible assets??? hahahah i guess i am falling in love with the subject, but the lecturer isnt cute. poor me
Men Universities are full of too much BULLSHIT
Just like one of my fav sci-fic series star-trek, i discovered the word explorer, actually before that , but well i would say the usage of it began from then.My favourite series pack was the Next Generation captained by John Luc Picard. hum well i should let it flow that wayz, anywayz i am an explorer too when it comes to reading, researching and travelling arround the world wide web. i read like crazy. test like nuts. and travel like light. yeah i am great explorer.
well during my recent exploring i discoverd that when you write any URL on your browser, and add this name
.mirror.sytes.org after the url and press enter, you would see the site tottally in a mirror view. well you wanna try and see what happens. try for
Example: http://www.google.com.mirror.sytes.org
heheh cool isnt it? well this is provided my mirror.systes.org.
well i tried it with my site, i was impressed. the technique behind the scripting is incredible.well thats all for now. Blog Diactivate. hehehe
well todaywas ok . i slept arround 8am in the morning cos i was doing some catching up and dont have lectures. well hum its really funny. well i have actually kindda change my blog mode of stuffs as in general content. you might see more of security etc stuff. well yeah and i have a new plugin in my website that allows me auto backup my database incase i go naughty. ;). well sometime i do. yeah and i am trying to start that template i talked about before. well i guess thats all for now. well i have to catch up on some reading. i am not a nerd ok. if u think i am. i do have a life :p. bye
hum here comes another day towards the end of the week. hum getting older day by day of course. well i dont want to get old. well if u ask me why? i dont know. its just the idea of having to die after old age that i dont want. well i dont wanna die. nobody wants too. heheh why all this crap. well i dont know. well anywayz, i started the article for SPb today well i am a member in the content section. actually i began with graphics, but wasnt active at all. personal reasons 
hehehe. anywayz the article is on “MMU from an international student perspective”. i have started but the problem i am having is following a pattern cos i easily get carried away by the flow of what i am narrating. anywayz doesnt matter does it. hope it doesnt end up sounding like some sarcastice article. anywayz yeah school today. hum i have class at 5pm. slept at 8am in the morning 
woke up 12pm. had my lunch + breakfast at 2pm today. and came online at 3pm and now its 4:14pm or so. hum what a day !!. well i guess thats all for now. ciaoz.
hum why did i use the word future? i dont know . perhaps i have finally settled. no more playing with my databases and other stuffs. hum . so what next. yeah still thinking about my guestbook. designing actually. i want something simple. by tonight i would upload it. the rest is quite simple. like the about me section. the links section have to do some modification . um watelse my pictures. still doubting whether i am really gonna put something in it. apart from that everything is just fine. anywayz thats all for now and stay tuned for more contents. thank you.